share my secrets away

3yrs8mnth

2011-09-28T09:36:00.002+08:00

You know today suppose to be my special day with you. its our 3 years 8months. but ..sigh. i miss you baby. i dont know how you do it. you were much stronger than me or maybe you already found someone new. Well, i wish you all the best. loving you as always.

2011-09-22T17:21:00.001+08:00

i still could smell ur perfume ard me. everywhere i go,there's always that smell. :( it hurts

My glory day.

2011-09-19T15:14:00.000+08:00

those days were gone.

2011-09-19T15:09:00.001+08:00

baby don't you remember me?
i miss you. where are you? why are you not here with me? :'(
it hurts knowing you're there but you kept silent and ignore me. baby what happened? :(

2010-09-02T21:01:00.002+08:00

seriously if u ask me if i know u still love me or not, my answer wuld be No.
i dun feel ur lovee, i dun feel ur care..
today same thing happen.
theres always something u wanna fight or hurt me about.
haix.

n yeah u just did it again by shouting at me over the phone.
:'(
whats wrong with you.. :'(
why are u doing this to me?

do u want some time aloe from me??
why is it getting worst.
haix..
:(((

2010-09-01T11:35:00.003+08:00

this is where i will type whatever shit or happy things i feel.
well, u promise me to fast today.
n yeah as usual.. ure not.
u said u sacrifice for me.
well, not good enough.
i miss you.
goshh.. you dont know how hurt,sad,upset i am these few days.
things getting bad to worst.
this love is killing me.
this life is pulling me over.

i dont know when will this love ends. im not looking foward for it.
but if it happens, i wont forget our precious moments together.
right now, i just wanna be with you always. i wanna spend all day with you.
but ure always busy with stuff annd when we talk there will be alwways something that we need to fight about.

miss going out to the park, breakfast at the mac donald. watch movies with you..
cook with you..
:(

2010-08-31T11:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel like ur the nearest thing in my heart.
n sometimes ure like so far away. i couldnt feel you.
we're not the same like 2 years before.
when i was with you. u would text me n say ure sorry till i text you back.
you didnt do that anymore.

we're different now..
we're not as sweet as we used to be.
we argue each time when we talk on e phone.
:'(

i miss you soo bad.
i get confuse each time when we fought.
sometimes im scared to tell u what im feeling, my true feelings.
coz u wont understand me.
all u think is i do not trust you.

i miss you ..
i miss you being patience with me..
i miss you writting those small notes for me.

i hope we could be like last time.
coz i dun feel ur love anymore.
i dont.. :'(

i dun miss the new you..
i've always miss the old you 2 years back.
in my mind is not the new things new place we go.
its always been the 2 years ago..

:(

2010-05-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

its been a rough time for me.. Everything just happened so fast. i still couldnt believe this.
i miss you :'(
i wanna hold you.
If onnly you knew how i felt.

2010-03-04T17:36:00.002+08:00

5.43pm

i dun know what happen.
i did it because i was lonely.
because you dont seem to care abt me.
& why are you so mad abt it?
atleast i didnt hug someone else for comfort.
i was waiting for you. and wtf. you were sooo fuckkkking busy with ur friends. haix.
:(

2010-03-03T20:31:00.002+08:00

8.31pm

currently just listening to songs..
mostly sad songs..
haha
i dont know whyy.
i cannt wait to go shopping tomorrow and take aqil home :D
&& i miss my bestie soooooooo much.
:(
anw, i dont know why..
i've download the "we are the world' song. For HAITI ..
i feel so touched when i saw the music video.
hmm..
missing you too babyy.. :(

2010-03-03T10:51:00.002+08:00

well its been a while since i last blog in everyday manner. HAHAHAHHAHAHA. been lazy n 'busy'.. hhaaa. currently worried abt babyy. baby is sick. plus baby is worried abt his bibik..
bibik just went back yesterday..
anw, my birthday is on 27th march. not too far neither near..
but i wanna share what i want for birthday.
shoes from ruby.
new eye lashes.
new cntct lense.
new eyeshadow makeup.
new bag.
new dress.
something that u make by ur own.
sunflowers.
hahahahaha.. n many2 moreee.
hmm..
oh ya! i need to buy new brassss. HAHAHAHAHAH
ok toodles.

:(

2010-02-13T07:31:00.003+08:00

saturday,7.34am

yesterday was baby's bdae..
as a gf, i wanted to be the best to celebrate with him.
but end up his ('close friend' NOT) celebrate with him.
:'(
i really felt bad abt it.
i hope he will like my surprise today :(

2010-01-06T21:11:00.002+08:00

wednesday,6th jann 2010. 9.20pm

is it really me to blame?
am i over doing it?
i dont know.
trust?
i dont. i dont anymore.
:'(
i gotta find my place, i wanna hear my sound.
i do not want all this.
but it hurts me too much..
dont care other things infront of me, i wannna be me, i wanna be happy.
& each time whenn u lied to me, i dont even have to type it out.

2010-01-02T13:37:00.003+08:00

2nd jan 2010. 1.47pm

dont really know what to think or do.
but i felt like crying and feeling hurt.
i dont need your comments abt me.
i live my life just the way i wanted it to be.
n what kind of person doesnt even know how that someone would feel.
its unbelievable.

as i will listen to ur problems even if u told me 100 times,talk to u nicely even when u do something wrong to me.
did you even did what i did?
you will shout or ignore me if i told you abt my problems. you will get mad for small mistakes that i did.
but whatever. it doesnt matter.
im just feeling hurt,just wannt you to know that.

2009-12-28T22:02:00.002+08:00

28th dec 09. 10.12pm

happy anniversary.
well, i had a bad day tho.
cried two times.
first, fought with baby.
second with dad.
omg.
can i go to australia or something. haahaha
i just wanna go far.
or maybe give me time machine.

i still, couldn't believe u did this to me.
maybe i was too sensitive.
but it hurts me knowing you just dont really care what im goin through.
anw, happy 1 year 11th months anniversary,baby.

love,ursillygirl

2009-12-18T15:51:00.000+08:00

2009-12-16T22:20:00.005+08:00

16th dec 10.33pm

im having a very bad headache.
im listenning to neyo's song.
'never knew i needed' is one of our favourite song.
i felt like crying now. i miss you so bad,babyloveee.
i feed ur fishes and cats.
i kept reading ur messages till i fall asleep n wen i woke up, i was holding the phone still.
i keep on viewing ur photos.
listening to ur favourite songs.
i kept on thinking ur missing someone else too. i dont know why.
i kept on worrying about us.
ii just need you, right here, next to me.
i miss you so much, love.
:(

2009-12-15T20:49:00.003+08:00

15th dec 9.00pm

had a great time yesterday.
thanks for the movie,baby.
and the pastamania too.
im missing you so badly now.
you're gone to KL.
ohh god... cant sleep without hearing your voice,baby.
hope you're ok.
miss u so bad!

btw, my girlfriends made my day today.
went to east coast park. rent the bicycle.
had a hell of a good time. hahahaha.
come back soon dear.
(:

2009-12-12T20:41:00.002+08:00

sat 12 dec 9.00pm

i really hope u could give us more time.
please.
im sorry but plese give us time.
i dont want this to end.

"So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy"

Still, how could you hurt me what i was missing?

2009-12-12T11:55:00.002+08:00

aqil is super cute! but hes goin hm tonight. :(
but i had fun with him.
and baby, im sorry.
we just need to be together. i love you.
goin to tamp soon. my moms buying christmas prezzie for isobel anna jojo daclan .haha
ok byebye!
12 dec,12.03 pm

2009-12-10T16:08:00.004+08:00

10 dec,4.22pm

baby, thanks for updating my blog whike im gone to jakarta. and thanks for feeding my fish and took care of my cats! you're so sweet,baby.
i hope i could meet you really soon. i hope u really love what i boought for you.
gosh... i miss you so much. and thanks for taking care of me.
ok gtg now. love love love you!
btw, aqil is at my house!
cool or whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat. miss him super duper much!
:))

2009-12-05T23:07:00.004+08:00

To: Huneybuneybear

Im really sad right now..
Cepat balek please!
I cant stand anymore.. I need you right here with me..
I just wanna hug you & kiss you..
I cant wait for your return!
I jus wanna spend time with you.
Hug, kiss & laugh nonstop with you.. Hehe!
I miss holding your hands, look at you, pinch your cheek, squeeze you & loads more..
Cepat alek kay?

I miss you vegetably..

Much love, urneyo

2009-11-30T08:16:00.003+08:00

monday,8.35am,30th nov

i hate it a lot.
i dont wanna hear it.
i dont wanna see it.
it makes me wanna vomit everytime i saw it.
i know you're thinking that im over react.
maybe i am. and maybe im not.
i dont know if im suppose to feel that way.
seriously, i felt like im not yours anymore.
maybe its a good thing.
maybe i will regret it.
but as long ur happy with her. im good enough. we could be friends right.
you always think that i wont get to see what u send the disgusting words to her.
well, i did. i saw it and i even feel it. i hope u're happy.
no, its not a small matter. coz u did it all the time.
maybe u will like it if i did that to someone else. and pls dont tell me its a girl or a boy thing. there's no fucccking diffrent.i know that u still like her. i know ,i really know. i ever had a crush,damn it. even when u dun like him or her anymore, u still have the feelings when u saw that person again.
so please dont give me ur bullshittt. im tired.
maybe this is the reason for you to leave me and i have to accept it.
love, me.

2009-11-29T15:30:00.003+08:00

sunday,29th nov,3.44pm

when i think about things, it makes me feels like going to the beach.
the bestest place to think about problems.
not quite sure what my problems are. but i know there is.
i didnt spend my day with u for our anni.
i dun really know what to do,really. i kept on feeling sad and frustrated by u.
you dont really change a thing.

2009-11-20T20:54:00.002+08:00

20th nov,friday,8.56pm

baby's gone to oversea. :(
im missing you.
so much. even tho sempat meet him kejap.
haiz 5 days without ur voice... :(
all i culd do is stare at ur pictures.
hope u're safe at there. dun forget to mandi and makan kay .ahahahahh.
aluhh................................ baby, cepat balek k. :(

miss you.

2009-11-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

19th nov,thursday,9.09pm

just finish my ngaji.
i dun really like it when mom has no mood to teach. she will scold and nag all the way.
i hate it alot if shes in that mood. but whatteverrrr.
any, baby goin to oversea tmrw.
so i need to spend time with him tmrw morning. maybe breakfast at mac. hahahah
oh god, 5 days? terlalu lamer sangat2. chey bedek..
hahaa. but seriously, i will miss him so much. :(
cant even call him or msg. i will have a bad five days without hearing ur voice,sweetheart. please dont berangan nk naik motor eh kat sane.
hmm..
school was bored today.
came to class and nasir nags all the way.
was doing my work,my friends ask to go for break.
and after that played some game with huda,ain and indah.
ahahahahhaha.
funny eyy.

and and and, ain said something to that LOSER. wah sedap sia die dgr. hahahahahahaah. he suck to the core.
ok bye.
baby, i miss you.
(:

2009-11-18T10:05:00.002+08:00

18th nov,wednesday,10.21am

in school now.
having AUTOCAD.
think gonna meet baby ard 12 plus?
hmm. miss him soo damn efgudgndfgiugbnfuigbnsfauiga MUCH.
i had a bad headache last night and i reject all calls.
im sorry polarbear.

i brought brownies to class today. ((:
gonna let my bestfriends to have it first!
wooowoooo.
i need to buy new shoes laaaaaaaaaa.
n n n n i wanna buy fake eye colour. HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
cant wait for JAKARTA LA EYYY!
hahahahha. me and ain gonna wear the new tudung. wah cant wait.
my new lappy is great. blh tgk movie malam2.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
and that bitch sucks to the core! eeew

love you baby.
(:

2009-11-16T18:37:00.002+08:00

16th nov,monday,6.46pm

well, i guess you or your boyfriend must have obbessed reading my blog too ey?i mean its really doesnt matter. a blog is for people to read right? kalau kau tknk,den private kn uh. i bet u must have read all my post. geeez. think your boyfriend is good huh? he told every girl he knows that he's single and flirt with them and oh! did he told you that? i bet he did. you must be a great girlfriend to let him do such things. hope u have a very happy ending.

2009-11-13T10:51:00.002+08:00

13th nov,friday,11.00am

pictures i took in school with my favourite friends. HAHAHAHA.

not going to school today.

babysit today.

hmm.

im bored.

i really dont know what baby is up to.

so whatever.

bye!

2009-11-13T10:37:00.003+08:00

13th nov,friday,10.48am

happy belated birthday to raudah love! (:

2009-11-10T10:20:00.002+08:00

10 Nov,Tuesday,10.29am

kau terase ke ape?
well, your friends, my friends and her friends are probably right.
what a loossseeeerrrr.
worst bitch ever.
we can definitely move on without you.

2009-11-06T11:35:00.002+08:00

6th nov,friday,12.20pm

whats on your mind?
im not pretty sure but whatever.
sometimes i think you really being unfair to me.
sometimes i felt like you wanna make me jealous.
sometimes you make me felt its so hard to believe you.
sometimes ur reasons are so unbelievable.
sometimes you act to be okay when you're not.
sometimes i really hate when you being with her.
sometimes im okay when you're with her.
sometimes i feel left out when you're on the phone with someone else.
sometimes i feel sad when u kept her messages.

sometimes i wonder, are really being faithful to me?

2009-11-03T14:06:00.002+08:00

3rd nov,tuesday,2.23pm

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me
I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)
I’m fallin’ for you
Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

2009-11-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

2nd nov,monday,3.05pm

missing them :(

2009-11-01T20:41:00.003+08:00

1st nov,sunday,8.48pm

for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)

for the ending of my first begin
and for the rare and unexpected friend
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again
you're the best thing i Never Knew I Needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily
the way you slime and how you comfort me i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter

you're the best thing i never knew i needed

so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

who'd knew that I'd be here
so unexpectedly undeniably happy said with you right here, right here next to me
girl you're the..

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it's so clear i need you here always

iloveyou,baby.

2009-11-01T20:18:00.002+08:00

1st nov,sunday,8.36pm

im having a bad sore throat :(
& im missing dear so much.
mahdi makes me shout all the time.
it hurts my throat so bad.
haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
should i go to school tmrw?

miss you a lot,dear. :(

2009-10-30T22:27:00.003+08:00

friday,30th oct, 10.41pm

mr nasir and i. :)

curl curl nmpaaaaakkk.

hahaahhaha

just so glad to meet up with dear tday.
thnks for the gift.
i love you!
(:
n i need ur psp!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH.
anw, im sick tday. sore throat and flu.
baby took good care of me .
thanks dear.

2009-10-28T09:45:00.000+08:00

wednesday,28 oct, 9.52am

hapyy 1 year 9 months ANNIVERSARY,LOVEEEEE!
love you. muacks!

2009-10-27T09:52:00.002+08:00

tuesday,27th oct,9.53am

i think i was too harsh last night.
baby is sick, and i was telling baby abt leaving him.
ofcourse i love you,dear.
but for now, im still urs and ur still mine.
please take care,dear.
eat ur medicine.
hope to meet you tmrw for our anni.
muacks!

2009-10-25T14:26:00.002+08:00

sunday,25th oct,2.28pm

hello people.
sorry for not blogging for quite a longggggggggggggg time. lol.
i was soo damn lazy and i have no idea what to type. hmm
even now tho.
so i will just type whatever my mind is saying. hahahaha
im craving for baby's pasta.
damn..
im so hungry!
aaaaaaaaaahahahhha.
mom said no chicken for 1 month. :(
but sometimes i do eat it at long john. hahaha.
dun tell her ah!

i miss polarbear so much.
actually i miss his psp more. i get bored so fast and im so stress coz i want to play "call of duty" game.
alahh yg tembak2 tu.
ahahahahah.
hope to meet u up soon,baby.
he said he's buying me shoes.
haha. cute uh. but i think what a waste,to buy me stuff. i'll buy for you something too okay,sweetheart.
any, i am sooo not into "that guy" okay baby.
i love you la.
and you better dun be so close with that girl ah.
aku sepak melayang pegi australia.
k bedek!
hahaha
ok bye.
love you! (:

2009-10-18T17:43:00.002+08:00

18 oct,6.05pm

i really dont know whats happening.
you have so much reasons sumtimes.
its really iritating and its hard to believe.
& u have ur brain to think whats right and wrong.
or maybe think how would i felt if you did something wrong.
i hate to think abt it.
but this feelings really make me gone mad.
no, im not mad.
just sick and damn tired.
& please stick to ur promises.

2009-10-18T09:04:00.003+08:00

18 oct,9.40am

cheers! :)

2009-10-17T22:18:00.003+08:00

17 oct,10.21 pm

sorry for not updating.
n make my blog private.
haaaaaaaah.
soo, im back, i guess.
will post more pics soon.

& missing baby so much! :)

2009-10-05T18:10:00.003+08:00

nana's

mine!

sorry for not updating my blog.
hmm.
i've been crying for 2345465474564 days. chey bedek! haha
well, nowdays i kept on crying due to baby.
i dont know laa. im too sensitive la kan.
yesterday baby come to my hse n we ordered mcdonald.
and i sang baby lots of songs. and i think baby like it. hahahaha
i love you babylove...
i miss hugging you syg...
cant wait to meet you tmrw.
:)
lots of loveeeeeeeeeeeeee,
ursillygirl.
lets make love! hhahaha

2009-09-28T17:32:00.002+08:00

monday,5.42pm 28th sept.

its my 1 year 8mnths anniversary.
i bought a card for baby and something not to be said first.
hmm.didnt meet baby tday coz he still having stomach flu.
hope to meet you tomorrow,sweetheart.
love you super much! (:

2009-09-27T12:04:00.003+08:00

just came bck frm swimming.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. penat gila. hahhahaha
baby is sick. stomach flu and fever.
hmm, get well soon,bby.
hope i could meet you tmrw.
miss you super much!
:(
eat ur medicine kaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
n dun lazy to bath! hahahahaha
love you,polarbear.

anw today gonna go to my mama tersyg hse for raya den bbysit again at sarah's hse.
hmmm :( penat.

ok bye!

2009-09-26T11:48:00.004+08:00

saturday,12.25pm 26th sept

missing my polarbear so much.
maybe meeting him on monday, i guess.
i heard he's buying me something for our 1 year 8 mnths anni.
haaaaaaaaaaaaahahahahha.
best !!
nowdays i feel so lazy to talk on the phone even tho i miss bby like fucccck.
i just want you near me.
& its been 6 days i started jogging.
hahahahah.so far so good laaaaaaaaaaa. HAHAHA.
babysit tonight. im gonna hug them! hmm i miss aqil so much :(
ok b y e !

2009-09-26T10:10:00.005+08:00

saturday,10.29am 26thsept.

miraaaah bby

mcm kiss gtu eh. ahahahahaa

yummmyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

bras.
eye lashes.
caremal ice blended.
bagel
sedaaaaaaaaaaaap.
n my name is not SHAMIDA! hahahaa

had fun with ain n mirah yesterday.

mostly i spend my money on foood, & drinks. HAHAHAHA

btw,something shit happened yesterday,& im starting to hate you again.

ok bye! ahahahhaha

2009-09-26T10:06:00.002+08:00

saturday,10.09am 26thsept.

my dear mirahh blog this.
its so sweet laa kaaan! HAHAHHAHAHA.

dear shabby, hey girll, you always make me smile. you have been a great listener, always cheer me up when im down. always so sweet. so happy and bubbly but sometimes i pity you too when ure sad w your family of bf. hahaha i love to listen to ur probs and everytime you laugh, makes me wanna laugh.im sorry if i ever offend you in any way, i love you so much and same goes to you, i hope oure love/ relationship all never stops and would keep growing. i love you girl, and lastly, when ain n i advises you, its for your own good cos we love you so so so so much, dont get us wrong. i love you baby!!

2009-09-22T21:45:00.002+08:00

tuesday,959pm

today was damn bored.
i stayed at home.
i slept for many many hours.
i was having a bad mood.
i miss aqil super much. i kept asking mom abt him :(
nadya(cousin) call me 'new water' coz i was suppose to go to the place but i was lazy plus my friend cant make it.
n yeah! its been 2 days i started my morning jog with mom n dad.
hahahahahaha.
n i miss my boyfriend.

okay bye!

2009-09-19T23:58:00.006+08:00

sunday,12.07am

selamat hari raya to sape sape yg menyambut hari raya. ahahahah.
hope u enjoyed the pics!
ok bye! haha

2009-09-16T17:25:00.002+08:00

Wednesday, 5.46pm

I can't complain about the way we tried
So not gonna look around
I'm just gonna look away.
It's that jealousy, breaking my heart.
i was ok at first but i think you're kinda over do it.
its ok to talk abt her sometimes.but dude, each time you called me, there's always something that u want to tell me abt her. what? u're obsessed with her?
& the best part is, you're making me jealous n said, "i dont want you to be mad or sad"
haha. good job ey?
fcuk.

2009-09-16T09:39:00.004+08:00

wednesday,10.04am

hellooo! well yesterday went to johore bahru for some shopping. my mom,dad and me. & dad has been really really sweet yesterday. he open the taxi door for my mom n i, he hold our hands while we're going dwn frm the train. hahahahah its sooooo not him yesterday. but, i like it. and mom was like "eh anak kucing tu kiut nyeeeee!, amek gmbr cpt!" she loves cats. hahaha.we had a great time even tho our stomach was grumbling. ahahaha. &&& i miss aqil soo damn muchyy!
and i miss my polarbear too. :(

okay bye! hahaha

2009-09-12T09:50:00.003+08:00

saturday,10.00am

its been 2 weeks. i miss baby sooo much.
hmm hope to see you on monday or something. HAHAHA.
yesterday baby was asking me random questions.
but i like it tho. it makes him jealous and im sooo loving it.
he was saving money to take me out and buy me something i think? haha.
& he's probably still sleeping like... HAHAHA.
okaay need to bath now.
miss you, polarbear.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. hahaha
(:

2009-09-11T11:38:00.002+08:00

friday,11.50am

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute, it's love
And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you're gone
I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
Why we gotta fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mmm
If we can't surrender
Then, we're both gonna lose we have, oh, no

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
I don't wanna fall for it, now...

2009-09-11T10:51:00.002+08:00

friday,11.17am

they're so hot. ahahahahahahahaha

ok bye.

imissyou,polarbear..

2009-09-09T11:46:00.001+08:00

wednesday,12.09pm

get it?

2009-09-09T10:05:00.004+08:00

Wednesday,10.14am

before..

after!. HAHAHAHA

i miss my lovely girlfriends sooo much!
cant wait to see you guys again.
& ofcourse i miss my polarbear.
its been years.. chey nk bedek. its been weeks. hmm miss you so so much dear.
n yeah. ITS HOLIDAY! wooooooooooooooooooooo.
plus aqil gonna be at my house for 5 days! ahaha. gerek. ok bye!

2009-09-05T15:10:00.001+08:00

saturday,3.11pm

enjoy.

2009-09-04T20:55:00.002+08:00

friday,8.55pm

whats on your mind right now?

-babyyboo

2009-08-31T23:01:00.005+08:00

tuesday,9.05am

biting my dear teddy. ahaha

suddenly i miss aqil so badly.
he's so cute n he makes u wanna squeeze his face!
atleast having him ard could make me happy and smiling by myself.
i hope mom could take him to our house this friday.
hmmm..
I MISS AQIL!!! :(

ok bye!
btw, my girlfriends rocks yesterday!
hehehe.

he scared of my santa claus full of coins. ahahahaha.

cute cute!!!

2009-08-28T21:42:00.001+08:00

friday,9.42pm

happy anniversary,love! (:
im soo glad i could see you tday.
hehehehehehe.
miss you so much!
good luck for your tmrw's game.
play hard kay. dun malas n walk2 only. hahahahaha
love you polarbear.
muacks!
i had fun with you just now (:
loveeeeeeeeeeeeee,
ursillygirl.

2009-08-24T21:22:00.002+08:00

Monday,9.28pm
i swear i've been missing you so badly.
you and i had been so busy and we rarely chat on the phone.
but i still love you and miss you,dude. (:
i cant wait to see you.
i cant wait for raya too! HAHAHAHAHAH.
im so sorry if i wasn't there for you always.
i was damn tired and went to sleep without telling you. hehe.
haix.
i wish i could hug you! :(
miss you too much love.
hugs and kisses
ursillygirl.
(:

2009-08-22T20:47:00.002+08:00

saturday,9.09pm

hello.
ate mee soto just now.
mahdi and zuhair help me with the preparation.
we have to do it since mom n ain went to bbysit.
im sooo full but feel like eating strawberry ice cream.
HAHAHAHA.
i pity dear coz i dun think he has his food yet. 7 break the fast den 7.30 is his sccer game. i hope i could be there to support him and gave him food.
miss you dear.

2009-08-21T07:37:00.003+08:00

friday,7.38am

good morning.
i feel like blogging before i went to bath for school.
hmm.
i hope to meet baby later.
yesterday test was like S**T.
me n my grp was the first 1 to do and the last 1 to finish. like gbdhfgbdfkgbdgbdfg~!
oh what to do. some part of our things is broken or something? hahahah.
i feel like watching movies ltr.
hehehe.
ok bye!

((((:

2009-08-18T16:58:00.002+08:00

Tuesday,5.02pm

mostly nowdays i only spend time with this girl. haaahahaha.
well,shes understanding and i love her!
wooooooooooooooooooooo.
ahahahahah.
thanks eh huda teman aku tadi. tapi waste la. lepas kau pegi. aku balek..
hmm.
school was okay today. end at 10 plus. den SC members need to take grp photo.
hmmm. fun jugak .
den headed to ang mo kio with huda dear..
ahaha.
we were gossiping in the bus.
den after that i bought ice-cream yogurt. sedaaap nk mampos.
huda headed home. and i waited for bby.
well, was asking him where to meet and he was like "msg blh tk?"
wonder why the hell cant we talk on the phone. oh yeaahhh theres girls beside him. no wonder. plus im so sick and tired asking him where the hell he wanted to meet.
i was soo fuccking pissed. and went home.

2009-08-17T16:52:00.004+08:00

monday,4.55pm

didnt go to school tday.
followed my to clinic and help her with her work.
hmm i was super lazy but i love my mom so yeahh.
after work mom blanja me mcdonald. haaaah.
and dad called asking what the doctor said.
and mom was like"org takot la nk blg. nanti nangis." while her face is smiling. cn see all her teeth. ahahahaaha.
i was laughing like crazy.
anw bby, i tried using ur psp for the internet. cm tkle je. ahahha.
i dunno how to use laaaaaaaaaaa.
i miss you!
so glad could meet you and watching you playing sccer even tho u were like lazy. AAAHAHAHA.
lovelove you.

(:

2009-08-16T10:29:00.004+08:00

sunday,10.40am

sedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap!

yummy yummy! ahahahhaa

cute aqil! ((:

yesterday's outing.

haha.

okay bye.

i need to bath!

2009-08-15T09:51:00.002+08:00

goooooood morningggggg!!!
saturday,10.03am

my hand hurts.
i wish i had my bath already.
i keep on listening to 'give love a try' & 'if tomorrow never comes'
okaaaay, i know its weird. haaah.
im happy to meet him yesterday.
i think yesterday is the best day ever. (:
aqil is here, so im gonna smack and pinch him hard. ahahahahaha. just kidding.
he's looking at me and smile for no reason, cute kan tu anak.
gonna have my lunch at pastamania today with ayeen and miraah! WOOOO!
i miss my darling cousins.
i miss my secondary school friends.
i wish i found $1 billion.
last night was great :)
all i know is, you're in my heart forever and ever.

2009-08-15T09:38:00.002+08:00

saturday,9.40am

miss those memories :(

HAHAHAHAHA.

ok bye!

2009-08-13T10:33:00.002+08:00

Thursday,10.44am

why must you be soooooooo damn dramatic????

such a loser,really. i mean whats up with you telling people im not being fair to you and taking advantage of you? wtf.
are you ok? or maybe u're sick or something. oh yeahh. you're sick. i read ur dramatic blog. come on babe, you dun have to lie to me using one of our friend's name. its soo damn pathetic. and call me at night saying that why am i doing this to you? wtf. do what? what the fuuck did i do, dammittt? and you told us you want to be far away frm us. so be it. all i know i treat you the same. come on! i shared my probs with you la siaa. and you're saying that i treat you not the same like huda???! damnnnn. something is wrong with you. and now u're saying huda is following me. whatthefck mann. did you forget you told us, you wanted to be far far away us? haha. nvm . if you wanna waste our friendship by making this drama up, den its up to you. have a good day.

2009-08-13T10:22:00.003+08:00

thursday,10.31am

Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it
It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

2009-08-13T08:48:00.004+08:00

Thursday,9.19am

some camp pics! enjoy (:

i be the aisya 50 sen. -.- haha
we won btw! (:

miss all the great memories .

ok bye! hahahaa

2009-08-11T13:19:00.002+08:00

tuesday,1.24pm

we all make mistakes. & sometimes we make desperate things.
what does it prove? nothing. & you never do nothing wrong.

2009-08-10T19:03:00.002+08:00

monday,7.10pm

maybe people around me doesnt like it when im with you.
but it gets so hard to move on.
what if i try asking you to leave someone you love so much.
i know im wrong.
i know what im doing is wrong.
im not saying people ard me is not being supportive but i just need time.
time to think and settle dwn.
im trying my best.
& i do think about it everyday.
just need more time.

& maybe, try to imagine you're in my place now.

2009-08-10T18:28:00.002+08:00

Monday,6.49pm

imiss aqil like sooo damn much :((

hes sooo damn cute! aaaahahaha.

ok bye!

2009-08-09T09:44:00.002+08:00

sunday,10.06am

2009-08-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

saturday,9.18pm

okaaaaay, ni nk step je kaaan. HAHAH

in class blowing bubbles!
aahhhh, feel so happy . HAHAHA. -.-

oh hello people.
i've been busy.
serious serious. hahah
a lot of things happened.
well, i bought baby a swatch watch.
i fought with my friend.
won the kite competition.
feeling moody and sad always.
&&& im soooo not ready for the test :(
shit.

not in a good terms with baby lately.
but i miss him so much.

2009-08-02T21:12:00.003+08:00

sunday,9.40pm

hello people.
haha. been busy these days. and lazy to update my blog. :)
hmm,. tmrw schooling. godddddddddddddd! cn i like not go?? im super lazy. hahhaa/
anw, i plan to bought something for baby.
haha. im so excited! hahahahaa/ giler.
i miss baby.
hes busy with soccer and family stuff.
hmm. i hope i could meet u up soon.
i miss ur hugs! wooo. like polarbear!
hehe. muacks!

n im soooo not ready for my fluid power test. :(
ok bye.

2009-07-28T21:47:00.001+08:00

Tuesday,9.48pm

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY,LOVE! (:
loveyousomuch!
& im so glad i could meet you today.
hehe.

2009-07-26T22:21:00.003+08:00

Sunday,10.25pm

school starts at 8 am tmrw. i'm not feeling sleepy yet. i just cant go to sleep.
i spend my day watching cds and dvds with mahdi,mom and ain.
i was kinda upset with baby.
ohh whatever. no point typing it out.
i just need my sunkist orange juice.
:((((

2009-07-26T08:39:00.003+08:00

Sunday.8.43am

i eat when im depressed
i talk shitt when im jealous
i shut my mouth when im angry
i mangle my fingernails,look at my hp over n over again when im lonely
i cry,shout,laugh when im hurt
i waste my money on anything when im frustrated
and men just dont know how to cope.

2009-07-25T09:53:00.003+08:00

Saturday,10.33am

hello!

just came back frm my honeymoon.

cehhh!

bedek nk mampos.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

anw,i love those photos above.

baby, i wanna go there! haha

anw dear. thanks for taking good care of me.

thanks for the nasi ayam eh mat. haha

iloveyousomuch.

today will be going to my mama(auntie) house.

woooooo.

toodles!

2009-07-23T15:36:00.002+08:00

thursday,3.40pm

went to school this morning.
but i was coughing non stop.
so mr.nasir ask me to go home.
i feel soooo sick in class just now.
cm nak mati -.-
i was half way sleeping,half way writting whats on the board.
and my flu getting worst.
im not too sure why im sick.
maybe i miss baby so much.
dont know why he didnt pick up the phone.
maybe hes sleeping.
hmm.
i hope i could go to school tmrw.
i hate this sick feeling.
i dun even have the mood to eat.
btw thanks indah and huda (:
for sending me and take care of me even tho just for a while.
(:
okaaay.
i need to take my medicine now.
baby, i miss/love you!

toodles!

2009-07-21T17:53:00.001+08:00

Tuesday,6.03pm

You are fine, you are sweet
Fine, I'm still a bit naive with my heart
When you're close, I don't breathe
I can't find the words to speak and I feel sparks

But I don't wanna be into you
If you're not looking for true love
No, I don't wanna start seeing you
If I can't be your only one, so tell me

When it's not alright, when it's not ok
Will you try to make me feel better?
Will you say alright? Will you say ok?
Will you stick with me through whatever
Or run away?

2009-07-19T18:53:00.003+08:00

Sunday,7.14pm

yesterday was fun. haha! i get to meet baby and i really enjoyed being with him.
i wait patiently for you to come (u're always damn late).& when i see ur cute face..
damn.. you make me smile by myself. (: thank you for the mee goreng dear. and thanks for feeding me. haaah. melampau kn aku.
ahahah. god! i just love ur hugs and kisses.
i still remember when we were best friends, we used to talked abt someone else that we love. and love comes unexpectedly,we're inlove with eachother.
and i seriously hate when u talk abt that girl again.
haaaaaaah.
okay hottie, i hope i get to meet you soon!
iloveeyousomuch!

2009-07-18T09:33:00.001+08:00

Saturday,9.53am

watched This movie yesterday. it was ok but kinda bored a little bit.

i had fun anyway! heheheeheh. :D

ok byeee! haha

2009-07-15T18:17:00.002+08:00

Wednesday,6.36pm

went to school wearing baby's sweather today. haaha.
didnt get to meet you today. coz u had a last minute soccer training.
plus you didnt go to school coz ur lazy.
hmm.. i miss you badly.
tapi tkpe laa. i understand. meet you on friday maybe ok?
& im really really am sorry about last night. i didnt mean it.
i really felt bad about it.
im so sorry okay.
i love you.
so much.

anw ain! you better dont read this and say it loudly. im gonna smack you on ur head if you did that! hahahahhahaha.

2009-07-15T17:58:00.003+08:00

wednesday,5.58pm

went out with my ite girls after school. plan just to eat long john silver. but somehow after lunch we went to the cinema. watched 'obsessed'. its a preety good movie to me. that white b**ch is crazy. hahahaha. i kinda hate her. okay i know im crazy coz shes only acting to be like that. haaaaha.
anw..
i kinda miss my secondary friends..
i miss my girlfriends.
i just hope everything gonna be okay.
im kinda sad when missing them.(it may sounds lame to you but this is actually how i felt!)
:(
i should stop now before i burst out.
miss you guys!

2009-07-14T15:07:00.007+08:00

Tuesday, 3.35pm

this is from raudah. :D
fadilah.
fazilaahh
mini.
ex.
jajaa
jaja
natashaa
seri,long lost friend
mirah bby

ayeeeen

memories
jamie's
levis's
demi's
nadee's
ayeen
addie's!
era's
caryaa's

oh well, i just wanted to share what my girlfriends says abt me. LOL.

btw,its written 2 years ago.

sooo, its funny to read what they wrote. hahahah.

have fun girls ! ((((:

2009-07-13T21:23:00.003+08:00

MONDAY,9.36pm

shes cute eyy :)

with mom.

seronok ni anak! hahaa

cuteeeeeee

my fav pic! hahaha.

BABYSITLOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

2009-07-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

Monday,9.17pm

mui leng and jing ting!

eindah,shabbyyy

sedaaaap! ahahaha

((((((((:

longjohn silver!!!!!!!!! woooo! ahahahahahah.
iloveeeeeit!

love my girls! okay bye! :)

2009-07-11T15:13:00.001+08:00

Saturday, 3.15pm

this is stupid. hahaha. but funny to me!

2009-07-11T14:47:00.003+08:00

Saturday,3.11pm

love. definately a big word.

well, im missing baby so much.

he hasnt call me yet.

wonder what are you doing now dear.

thanks for the chicken rice yesterday. heehehehe ((:

i seriously miss hugging you.

i want to pinch ur cheeks and slap you. HHAHAHAAHAHHA! just kidding.

i miss your smell i miss you busuk face when u're tired,i miss u holding my hand. i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

so damn much.

haha.

bi, i feel like smacking you. hahaha. i just love you so much! hahahah.

i love the rose, baby. i keep on smiling when i saw it near my bed. i wanna bite ur cheeks! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! (:

ok love you dear. hehe. you rock,dude! chey! hahahahahaah. muacks!

2009-07-10T08:55:00.004+08:00

Friday,10.44am

i cut my fringe? frinch? okaay whatever. ahaha
my teacher likes it. my friends likes it too.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
baby like the previous one.
hmm. i agree but i like this one too! hahah.

ramdom!!!
- banyak banyak mee, mee ape dlm tin?
TAG ME ! (:

2009-07-10T08:34:00.003+08:00

oh yeaaa. its getting harder! i think? hahaha

mr nasir. haha

indaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh

ok shut up.

((((((:

hudaaaa bby.

mui ling! (:

oh helloooo.. yesterday i was fasting and i had a bad/good day.haha.
thanks baby for the donuts! and rose. haha. (: i love you oh sooooo much!
mum cooked mee soto for me! haha. sedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap sekali. yum yum! hahahah. anw, no school today. cooooool or whaaaaaaaaaaat. gerek kn. hhhah. im going to trim my hair a lil bit. its getting big like lion's hair. HAAAAAH!
tmrw babyysit! hmmm. i cant wait! haha. the kids were so damn cute. serious serious. haha. okaaaaaaay i know too much "haha"
anw,i miss my baby. meet you soon dear. (:

2009-07-08T16:50:00.004+08:00

Wednesday,5.10 pm

hello.
nothing much at school today. its like waste of time pegi skola. haaaah.
anw, i seriously miss my baby.
dear..
mcm da i week gtu tk jmpe! haha. i miss you like alot alot alot.
& im sooooooo sorry if i hurt you these days.
kte asek gado je. im so sorry and i really hate that dream of urs.
its bullshit and iritating and im starting to think negative thoughts and its seriously making me feel so down.
im trying my best not to feel jealous maaaaaaan.
but i couldnt help it. its iritating and i feel like smacking you for telling me abt that dream. haha.
iloveyou,dear.
& i really really miss you alot.
i nk jumpe youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
muacks!
loveyou,dear.

okaay im gonna say something sweet abt you.
haha. babyy.. its so sweet of you to thought of buying me roses. i know its like very very sweet but its waste of money. & you know why i love you like crazy? coz ur sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo the penyabar.
miss ur cute face and hugs!

2009-07-07T21:31:00.003+08:00

Tuesday,9.45pm

fasting today.
haha. & baby was like worried abt me.
dear.. im okay! i'll be just fine. goin to fast on thursday. hmmm.
meeting mama tmrw! yay!
beli baju raye. hahahahaha.
anw, today test was like fgtrhfgxhfdhgs! i was like stuck all the way. oh god, i need to study my maths.
didnt meet baby for like how many days.. missing you so much dear.
tkpe tkpe friday jumpe kay?
wanna hug you tight tight! hahahahah.
muacks!
love you,neyo!

2009-07-06T17:58:00.000+08:00

Monday,5.59pm

NOT IN THE MOOD :(

2009-07-04T10:06:00.002+08:00

Saturday,10.08am
my soccer moments. lol (: